"When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart, and you shall see that,
in truth, you are weeping for that which has been your delight."
~Kahlil Gibran~
My Dearest Tina,
On Wednesday, May 5, 2004 you will be 32 years old. Oh honey, how we all miss you. I used to wonder, who can fix my broken heart? We were not prepared to lose you so soon. There are no written instructions that will "make it better" nothing can do that, but I know now there is comfort in knowing I am not alone and I have found a way to express that. I felt like I was not alone in my anger, frustration, and sorrow after you left us. There was someone else who was feeling the same way that I did. I have connected with several other angel mother's pain. I also was given hope by the end of this "journey" that it was not the end of the world.
Though the depths of my sorrow, I realized that the feelings surrounding my losing you were not that important, but what I do with those feeling is.
I came to a new beginning, one that is marked by spirituality, compassion and a really deep appreciation of simple blessings. I was also given the realization that humans can truly relate to the sufferings of Christ, that it
is not something that is out of reach, but something that can be attained.
I have grown so much since I lost you Tina and there is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and the precious blessing God brought to me, when you came into my life. I thank Him for you every day.
After the darkest hours the sun did shine again
I know you are in a better place
And beautiful angel's wing you wear
One day I'll see you my angel
Standing there on Heaven's stairs
So for today, we wish you a Happy Birthday Honey.
I'll love you and miss you until my life on earth is done.
Then we'll be together celebrating in God's everlasting Love.
